Who is Gay Chaos?

by SPETTERS

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Unwind Her 02:08
I look out for a fire I feel only denial I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her When I look out to find There is nothing in my mind I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her When I step forward I feel myself drop out I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her I feel it bite like spiders I’ll never be a real insider I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her When I rise in this new morning I see a light never knew Christened in gentle forms Slipping out of angles born Bones fractured to repair them A new being burning bright I can see myself in this new light And it goes out You pushed me into darkness I watch my body die I beg to slow the decay I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her She haunts me in my nightmares She breaks my fucking legs I can’t seem to unwind her I can’t seem to unwind her
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I am always looking out When I try to move my body When I try to have a home When I try to match our beats Always searching for a place To rest my head and drop my guard Where I can rest for once It does not exist It’s my truth An interloper wandering Through this world wondering If there is anywhere That will ever feel like home But I think I dream too much And it swallows me whole Always searching for that place It does not exist It’s my truth Where is the turning point I don’t feel bad about it I just wonder why it is And what’s to learn from this It’s my truth But I fall apart And I’m all alone I was left behind It does not exist
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Limbo 01:28
I’ve been out and I don’t know where I can’t seem to see anything clear I’ve been burning for another night But I can’t seem to get anything right When you’re around I can’t help but break I - I - I Can’t see clear And I can’t sit still And I need to know I - I - I Wish you would And I wish I could Just set it straight Would you tell me what’s in your heart? I just can’t seem to tell it apart Would you hold it close or let it go? Cuz I just think I need to know It feels so bad To hang out in limbo When I walk away You know I’ll be back
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So Strange 02:57
And all my doubts abound I let my troubles come around I can’t know a single thing I have to ask it twice It’s all for naught I’m lost in thought I can’t ever trust myself I let it get so strange I can’t find the way to land Never wind up back on the sand I’m drifting out to sea I let my thoughts win again I can’t have a single friend Afraid that everyone Has something left to say
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C.I.A. 01:31
I can’t walk in those tracks I can’t look straight ahead I can’t do what you said I can’t make right from wrong Running blind I don’t mind Seeing clear Never fit And there’s gotta be an out from This path of sameness There’s not a way to do it It’s better to be shameless Everybody looks through Everybody hates you
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I wish I didn’t always stop I wish I didn’t go so far I wish I didn’t step back I wish I had a leg to stand I wish I told it like it was I wish I could hear it all so clear I wish I didn’t overflow I wish I could let it go I burn out like everyone else I can’t hold it in my heart I need some better drugs to put me down I can’t keep it all together, I just can’t get it right I can’t keep it all together, I just can’t get it right I saw you walking away I heard all the words you say They repeat for me Every time I retreat You can’t trust a single soul You will crumble in the sand Strong for everyone Till the cracks start to show
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Insomnia 02:43
I see them creeping in All surrounding me I know they’re watching me They know the way I breathe I hear them talk to me They tell me everything They know my secret shame Driving home the blame They’re in my walls I can’t shake thought It’s all I want I see everything They’re lashing out at me And I will never sleep They’re ripping up my skin Tearing at my bones I can’t wipe it clean I can’t make it cease All I want is peace It’s evading me I’m walking down the street They’re still trailing me I can hear their steps Matching up with mine I know they’re listening I know i’m paranoid I know that they’re not there I know they’re everywhere
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Touchback 03:10
I am the picture of perfection along my green lawn labyrinth I am a walking statue of a pagan god Inside this perfect frame Hides a word I will not say Inside these golden bones Is a foreign poem I’m captain of the team You know they all want me I could have them all But i’m looking past them Inside this aching form There is a life I can’t live Inside this rigid shape There’s a sight I can’t contain Run away to another place We’re gonna live out by the bay Looking for a thrill tonight Something that makes me feel alive They won’t talk about me I will always be free You can’t push me down I am the picture of perfection
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Overcast 01:39
Sky is dark I can’t see the stars Seasons change, I guess we do the same I can take all of the blame It’s my fault i run the game I’m just born to lose I burn every bridge I run every red It’s all falling out tonight I’ve been searching for the only light I turned everything in on me Wish I didn’t call it then Can we go back somehow?
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Bad Habit 02:35
Why did I wake up like this? Is it more bad news from here? I can’t seem to figure it out But I know I can’t run it down Don’t think it’s anything to do with you I’ve got another bad habit or two I see you on the other side I wish I could have let it ride When I let you down again Will you let me be your friend I don’t deserve a single thing I watch everything fall off I push it all inside I see it in the sky you know I always change my mind
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I don’t know who trust, where to go, what to sing I don’t know what to be, who to hate, who to love I don’t know where to rest, what’s a test, it’s for the best I don’t know where it ends, where the rope pulls in tight I can’t trust you anymore I just think you’re burning books I’ve seen all your alibis I can’t trust you anymore I look out, at the stars, there is nothing, in the dark I cried out, for a way, to shine a light, make me see It never came, I turned away, you showed me out, burn it down Everyone, I used to know, full of hate, As I go I tried to make you proud Is this what you wanted? You crucified your child To make your father proud
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I watch you from afar I can’t really let go I see you turning back I know it’s bad I hear you call out It’s never for the best I wish it wasn’t bad I know i did you wrong I tried to make it right I never really did I know how it goes And I watched it unfold It’s not the thing I wanted Not right for anyone It’s not right at all I burned it in the dark I moved into a place Where I could run away From everything Now I see it all And nothing is clear I can’t tell you A thing about me You stood there You looked for me And I for you We were afraid I long to know Just what I’m to do I can’t go back Can we move ahead? I can’t undo But can I make it right?

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released September 15, 2023

Recorded at Cloud 10 in Reading, Pa
Mastered by Carl Saff
Cover Art: SMOKIN' by Barry Steely (www.barrysteely.com)

This is Spetters' last album.
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2021-2023

Annie: vocals
Joe: bass vi
Jules: drums
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